From my dear bro.... So Kai Lan, When are you coming? The guest room for you is ready. I'll get new bedsheet, pillowcase for you. I know where you can put your shopping gifts. You realise I haven't sent any new pix to you on the new house - because wants you to come to have a look yourself. In the weekday Gina will show you around. In the weekend we can all do something together with your niece. Shopping and more if you want to or we have a spa place nearby. Otherwise we can drive to places like Rotorua for a night or two away. Just checking out provincial NZ. We also have Astro just in case you are bored. Relaxing Auckland lifestyle is pleasant in summer. and can try out the famous Japanese food in Auckland. Like mum, once you try them, Japanese food in Malaysia does not seem to be nice anymore. Ever try an authentic Korean BBQ? Still not convinced to come?? what about sponsoring you some shopping money? Have a think eh. gege Okok, it's time to check out the flight! haa!

I enjoy being at my home sweet home so much, i like to be in the balcony, enjoying the nice KL night view, while having a drink and listening to songs....to me, this is life. (Tat's why i alwiz refer myself as anti-social, haha) Yea, maybe i should really take some time off and go traveling nx year, even it's just going to New Zealand, as long as i can experience something different...

Dear sis, saw you being tagged by ur fren as "party animal" in FB...i was like..huh?!...this young lady arr....must hav been party-ing a lot. Aiya....

Just finished my handing over job list. To be frank, i feel so much unwilling to give up on SISTeRS. I still have so much to do with MSL, GSL and DSL, as well as on Customer Charter. Well, life is alwiz full of unexpectancy and it's alwiz beyond our control. It's time to say goodbye to my good team mates - ZZ and Ija. Being with them is alwiz so much fun! I'll miss their laughter, the loud one of course! Some ppl said it's difficult to work with ZZ, however, undeniably, she sayang and appreciates me much and guides me well in my work. I know she's so much unwilling to let go of me, thus she's still trying to persuade management to hold me back. Don't worry, i'll still assist you if you need me. Well, time to say hello with OSEC and CMC Metro. Honestly, i'm not sure why i was assigned to this work scope. Being in OSEC and CMC, i need to be a good leader. That's just not me, i'm too introvert and coward for this. I prefer to be a good follower. However, since this has been the fact, i need to accept this, being willingly, or unwillingly. I hope i'll work well with Ju. Maybe others will compare Datin with Ju or me, however, i think we just need to contribute our best. Datin has spent nearly 7 years in CMC, it's fair for us to take some time adapting to this new work scope. Mayb CMC will really be out-sourced? who knows.... Yea, OSEC is something vy new + challenging. It will be expanded greatly and i hope i'll assist Ju much on this. Good luck KL! 16 Nov 09.

Got to know fr my dailou that, hy's grandma has passed away. I feel sorry to hear that. Although I hav nothing to do wif Pang's family anymore, i still appreciate what they've done to me, during those 7 years. I know uncle and auntie treated me just like their own daughter. They saw me growing up fr a young little gal of 21 yrs old. We all hav never known that all these would happen huh...it's ok, i've accepted this. I looked back at these pix...they're taken in 2007, during my bro's wedding. Hy, auntie and hsienfu attended it, ohya, Soo Yee as well...Samn was still hf's gf at tat time...but in a blink of eyes, Samn and me have left. This is life. Plis don't feel guilty, there's no right and wrong. I need to bear the responsibility as well. Sorry as i alwiz "bully" u b4 and thanks for your tolerance (all the while). You're just too kind to be cruel, i understand your reasons behind. You told me that i deserve a better one and u know i'll meet him one day. Too bad, your wish hasn't been granted. Hopefully without me, u can achieve whatever you aim in your life, as u wish and ya, maybe one day, you'll meet some1 who appreciate u more than wat i did. Mayb this is meant to be our destiny...Friendship Forever, cheers.

I'm so sorry Mr K, i really didn't mean it. I really "ter" said it, when we touched on the topic of jargon. When u questioned me, i remember i replied "yes (i didn't know how to tell lie)...why? (i admit i was js covering myself 'coz i dunno what i should say)" But i didn't hav the courage to say sorry 'coz u looked so strict at that moment, well, the normal look which u have, most of the time. You looked fine and mayb u din care bout this, but i feel so much guilty, mayb due to...i didn't manage to say sorry, or mayb i know i shouldn't reveal what you've told me as a fren. I know you won't be able to read and know 'bout this. I'm writing here just to remind myself in the future, on what i should and shouldn't say, even it's just a "ter" case. *************************************************************************************** Seeing you wif her alone in your car during lunch break early this week, i was quite shocked. Remembering what you've said and done to me, i was confused. Whatever it is, just let it be. Yea, another lesson learnt in life (i've learnt so much ei!). KL, you're mature enough to see through all these. Believe in yourself, only. - 15th Nov 09

Having drinks wif my good frens Tn Sxxx & En Nxxxx this evening. Mayb we're out of office and it's over office hr, we could talk freely and the main topic was 'bout having affairs. Marriage and having affairs are really 2 different things. Listening to them, i hav much thought 'bout married men having affairs. It's 'bout willingness between both parties, it's 'bout knowing the extent, or even knowing when to let go, w/o being deeply attached to. It should be a game (i'm not sure whether it is) w/o hurting anyone. I've also learnt that, when knowing or suspecting hustband of having affairs outside, wat an astute wife should do is just to keep quiet. Maybe she should believe that "A prodigal who returns is more precious that gold". While for the men out there, please, be as smart as you can, w/o letting your wife know 'bout it, forever. Never never give yourself away and let the cat out of the bag, if you're mentally prepared to enjoy this affair.

I pretended to be cool when he said "u've done well..." i replied as calm as i could "yea, just trying my best"....God knows i felt like flying to the sky~~! "Attention to details, immediate response to tasks, very reliable, excellent customer service attitude, high discipline and process and result focus".... Really feeling thankful to those who have "voted" me in the list. At least my hardwork is recognized. No matter wat, a big clap for myself, for the little hardwork i've gone through. Bravo KL!

Copy and paste fr ZZ... Miss Wong has been an independent subordinate who is able to interpret instructions and perform her best in most tasks. Her determination and initiatives to improve on every opportunity has made her a very good asset to the unit and department. She deserves the credit given and i am sure that she will continue to contribute as she develops new skills and talents. Determined? Independent? Hahaa, tat's not the real me.

**dinner on 230909**

Why should we care for someone who do not even appreciate us? I've accepted the fact today. I used to be so obedient and kind. I thought i should be loyal to my feeling. I thought i should comply with the rule of "right and wrong". To me, you're irreplaceable. Huh, i'm so stupid. I tend to say no and constantly turn down all those who treat me nicely. Yea, why? Maybe i should change my mind. Yes, this is life. We should look for happiness ourselves. After all, we don't even know what will happen to us tomorrow rite. Life is a game. I should learn to enjoy this game. Welcome to the real world. Please enjoy it. Thanks for teaching me a lesson today man. 10092009

我不是一定要你回來， 只是當又把回憶翻開， 除了你之外的 空白，還有誰能來教我愛。

Ya, mayb what he said was correct. Got to chat with my colleague during lunch break. "Since you're single, you should enjoy ur life...don't just stay at home...must go out and have some fun...." Last nite received a sms fr my fren, i know he must hav been blaming me for not going out (again)! Ya, actually except going out with close frens, if i'm given a choice, i would rather stay at home... Sometimes, i'm not sure, whether i'm just being lazy to go out, or, i'm a bit anti-social?!

I still remember when I was in primary skul, teachers used to ask us writing essays on My Family. Erhemm….ok….let me start composing now. Well, my name is Wong Kai Lan, as shown in the name, I was born in Wong’s family. People used to call me ‘Wong’ when I started to work. I think I prefer ‘Kai Lan’ as it refers to my real name, or else, I think they’re just calling my father’s name, or my grandpa’s, hehe. But here in KL, my colleagues used to call me Kai Lan, and, KL. Whatever it is, I’ll respond to them as long as I know they’re calling me. (Wong Kai Lan, u’re diverting from your topic….) I was born in a happy family. This is my father. I call him as “Ba…...” He’s my backer, or patron whenever I’m in trouble, well, such as, when being scolded by mum. Besides being my patron, he’s my supporter, or I should say, my sponsor, yes, financially. It’s a norm that whenever I ask for RM500, he’ll double up the sum of $, being scared that I’ll stay in hunger. So being her good daughter, I’ll make sure that I spend my money sparingly.

Yea, i should write this in my blog, so that 1 day, if i'm upset wif my work (who knows..) i can read this bk and i'll b determined to move on... =) Quite surprised & touched to hear this fr Mr Nirinder, during his closing speech for the K-Portal SME training... "Good work done by Kai Lan. I still remember the 1st day i asked her to do this project, she said "Ha?? Me?...but i'm not tat good in IT...."...and today, she did it! I'm really glad that she took up the challenge and she has done a good job. She managed to do it in such short period of time. Congratulation and keep up the good work!" Yea, i still remember, at tat time, i really took a sceptical attitude towards my capability in project management. Mayb i was fobia of what i've seen fr Pn Zatun, the way she managed e-App and SISTeRS... I alwiz (till today) think that, i'm a good follower rather than a leader...All these while, i'm just assisting Pn Zatun in CRM applications...but now, i'm so glad that, i hav my own project/system, which i've developed fr zero. This is called the job satisfaction kut....maybe.... I know Mr Nirinder feels very proud of this K-Portal idea. That's why he kept mentioning 'bout this during the diff "functions"...even b4 this portal was really well-developed! OMG....till i had no choice but to make this a success, by hook or by crook. Well, i should continue to work hard. This week, i'll meet up with the ICT team agn for the discussion, and yes...i've to urge the SME to complete their work/roles.......wat......prefering 1 to 1 session?.....aiyoo....GUYSssss....sighh!~

至少我学会了 爱情就美在遗憾 谁也别为难, 让我怀念一会 我会转身离开 我学着释怀 至少我记住了 你的笑有多灿烂

I couldn't start my car engine early this morning due to car battery. Feeling so helpless. Suddenly, I din know whom to seek help from. While i was taking LRT back home fr the office, suddenly i felt like crying. i know i still have frens and colleagues around, but as if all the ones whom are important to me, are not wif me. I feel like, i'm alone.

"Ya, different...she's strict and serious when it comes to work..." Aiyaaa...tak laa!.....but......thinking deeply....of course mah, when it comes to work rite.....takkan hav to play2... Actually, i'm very manja....plis don't accuse me! ;P

How nice it is if time can move backwards. Everything may change. Physically, mentally. No matter how u change, the feeling remains.

Not only once, a few male frens commended this secretly while i was told then by my close frens. They said..... Due to who I am & my surrounding, being my bf is quite a pressure....They must be good enough, at least financially. If tat's commended by those whom i'm not close wif, i still can rationalize it.... But.....but....when i shared this wif my dailou, he commended the same thing!! *pengsan* (am i really such a materialistic person in others' eyes ar?) So, wat should i do then??

I am alwiz grateful for what i'm blessed with =) Just be myself.

(aiya, u all js dunno me well...)

Finally, i've finished watching these long series... It's an interesting story with much family dispute and wrangle, interest conflict on business and also the triangle love... How one has to let go a relationship when he's meant to be other's... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uzq4d1Xrx8

Working with ZZ is sometimes a 'nightmare' for me.

As if i'm alwiz running out of time during office hours.

Everytime when i think that finally i have the chance to catch my breath, i'll soon hear her screaming fr her room "Kai Lan!~~" Sighhhh~

Having the chance to read and forward personal emails nowadays has become a 'bonus' for me.

ZZ made me remember of Adeeb. They both are bold and daring, especially when it comes to work. ZZ is too, dare to love and hate....but, ZZ is crazily mad. Please don't be scare off when she breaks into a laugh. =P Sometimes i'm wondering whether this is her way of releasing her work pressure.

Working with her made me feeling tension most of the time. I'll alwiz have a well-knit time. She let me think of SISTeRS, e-App, M&E audit, and this is the worst...everyday when i wake up in the morning, i'll be thinking "What do i need to settle in the office today?" What a miserable life. Sometimes, i'll grumble due to the workload, due to ZZ....but i know she's nice indeed...due to this, i've slowly accepted her "bossiness"~ I will still be feeling happy chatting wif her on unofficial stuffs.....on shopping, on make-up, on fashion.....sometimes, i'll be thinking, we'll become even closer if we're not of "boss-subordinate" relationship. Do i enjoy my work now? I dunno......maybe yes, and maybe no. Suddenly i remember my ex PK did say this to me during my 3 to 4-month nightmare period in Pgd "Ms Wong, u memang bagus dlm handling work pressure......" Now, i'm wondering.....am i?? Sometimes, when i'm overloaded with work, i really wish to do nothing, leave everything behind and js be idle! But....i understand that this is just a coward's and sluggard's way of thinking....tat's why everytime i'll still be facing every challenge wif smile... B4 this, i did blame tat i was too soft-hearted wif things and ppl around, but now i may think tat this is my strength, due to this, i may easily forgive and forget.....by not hurting anyone....

Sometimes, i do think tat i've slowly become quite "fake" in person.....take for an example, b4 this, i called Mr N as Mr Nirinder...then a guy told me this b4 he resigned "u know, Mr Nirinder loves others to call him as BOSS, so nx time remember to call him as BOSS ya!" i was like?????....then i forced myself to call him as BOSS, hi boss, good morning boss...yes boss??...js because i knew he would like it....now, i've used to call him as boss, & the main reason behind is tat, it's quite lengthy and time-consuming to call him "Mr-Ni-Rin-Der......." =P but in my heart, there's only one boss whom i alwiz address "sincerely"....

I appreciate every free time whenever ZZ is on-leave....or.....when i'm left alone in my cubic......when my name is not being called...or screamed!.....And i appreciate when i have the time to enjoy my morning tea/lunch wif Liza...and even talking rubbish wif the male colleagues....one thing good 'bout guys...they're of "take it easy" type...but plis, never never chat wif me when ZZ is in her room during office hrs...or else, all will be kena then! =P

Read this from the internet one day and decided to do something...

Agathians Shelter is an orphanage for boys. It provides a home to orphans, abandoned children, and children of single-parent. At the time of writing, there are 32 children living in the orphanage, ranging from the ages of 4 to 17. The home is managed by 7 committee members, all of whom are volunteers. The home employs one full time staff as caretaker, and a volunteer administrator handles the day-to-day administration work. I remember these words fr my brother 'The starting line isn't that important, but the ending point is'. Yes, they can grasp their future well. Most importantly, i hope that they will grow up happily, just like other kids.

They don't have the choice to be born and stay in whatever family that they wish but i know i have the choice to lend them a hand. Some new shirts/fast food may be insignificant for us but looking at their face, i understand how much they meant for the kids.

As the sun sets in the west, we will be set to go

To the river of Babylon, where the songs continue to flow......

Without the rest who say ‘no’

Let’s unwind and derail into the moment of life

Food in the house with some cake to top it up

Come along and cherish the night together

For it’s Dr Leong ‘s farewell party and we are here to gather

Be there or be square:

Date: 23rd Jan 09

Time: 6-11:30 p.m.

Venue: Redbox @The Garden-Mid Valley

Cost per pax: RM100 (the songs, food, beverage, cake and FUN)

V.I.P: Dr Leong

Special guest featuring: Datuk Anuar

Guests attended: Tn Syed, Rahim (Roy), Zulhasni, Nizam (Jason), Nirinder, Zatun, Ija, Datin, Melissa, KL

Aiyaa~~That night, everyone was so high & wasn't in the right mind, except Dr Leong & me who're still 'conscious'...haha, a typical 'pasu bunga'~ =)

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