My Diary
03 Aug 08 – Utterly Devastated
I tell myself,
Just like the wound on my hand,
It’ll be healed over time, slowly.
I don’t want to be unhappy for the same reason,
Over and over again.
But, it’s hard trying to be happy and pretending that everything is fine.
I’ve lost my confidence, towards everything.
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04 Aug 08 - Inconsolable
Today my ex Pgd colleague called me, crying bcoz of work pressure.
It made me remember my call to daddy that night, crying badly in the phone as well.
“Don’t cry, it’s not a big deal….” He said.
Maybe a few yrs later when I look back at this, I’ll realize that this is just too insignificant for me to be sentimentally attached to......
My future??....It’s js too far away. I’m not interested in.
How can I dream of my future padahal I can’t even handle myself well NOW.
What a pity.
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05 Aug 08 – Take It Easy Babe
Today I felt so much frus towards a colleague till i sms my boss S** and expressed my frustration~~~
I mean…couldn’t she be a bit polite and courteous? Sighhh….
Every person has diff personality and I’m not perfect as well.
It’s alwiz easier to judge others’ mistakes instead of ours.
Read a meaningful forwarded message.
* Don’t complain about others; change yourself if you want peace *
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06 Aug 08 - “What’s your flavour??”
Jacklyn told me that, my Mr. Right will appear soon in my life.
How good it is if she’s a pro fortune teller.
But she’s not. Too bad.
People alwiz say “The best remedy is to have another bf”.
Spare-tyre kah??
Sounded ridiculous.
A better one?? Better in terms of…………ermmm…..
Well, at least he is my taste, my flavour.
Besides having good personality (sounds so very really kolot), well, at least, someone that loves me more than him.
Ok, I should start ‘advertising’ myself – I Am Single & Available! (aiyaa!..)
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07 Aug 08 – Make a WISH
I wish I could do nothing and think nothing.
Being idle.
Need a break. Mentally tired.
I know. I know it’s time to WAKE UP and MOVE ON.
Plis, I don 1 2 feel in this way.
And plis don’t feel pity for me. I don’t need that.
I just need you to stand by my side.
Hug me and tell me, I’ll be fine.
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