Mr Right?

By KaiLan
I'm confused. Should or shouldn't i? Although he's not my "dream guy"...I know he'll be a good bf, and even a good hustband. I know i'll be a happy person being pampered by him. I really feel touched for everything he has done to me all these while. The issue now is, even though he treats me nice, very nice, i don't love him.....ok, mayb i shouldn't use the word love here, i don't "like" him enough... I still hang on with him, because i'm afraid, one day i'll feel regret of letting go a nice guy, who treats me so nice and appreciates me of who i am. Huh, i know i'm selfish. At least, do allow me to be selfish, for at least some time. Ppl always say: It's better to find some1 who loves you more than you love him. I always remind myself "What if i really hav found some1, very rich, handsome....but he doesn't love me enough? i'll be the one who suffer at the end"....yea, i understand all the theories, i really do. But i'm really not ready for that because......ok, i admit that i still can't let go of my past relationship. It's really unfair for me to accept him at this moment. To be honest, i have no confidence towards love or relationship, anymore. Till today, i've just poured my real feelings towards 3 men... first, of course my 1st-ex, second, of course my 2nd-ex, and the third, huh..this is ridiculous, someone whom i know we won't hav ending right fr the beginning... I've met with so many guys after my break up. Well, someone VERY rich, yet, married...someone handsome and looks smart, yet, playboy and...pls forgive me to use the word "cheap"...macam2...yet, although i'm not smart, or being naive sometimes, i still can differentiate who sincerely treat me nice and who aren't, whom i can just treat as normal frens. I'm not into the game of easy-come, easy-go. I won't start a relationship if i'm not ready, or if i'm still uncertain. But i know i'll be a very good gf in my next relationship. =) I leave everything to God, to the fate.
 

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